Cleanse
Well I started Monday which was 5 days ago so on day 5. Just did not really feel like blogging but feeling all hyper this morning so ...... Day 1 was long and painful as always and really hungry and craving food up until yesterday. I am a bit disappointed my cold has not completely gone away although my throat feels pretty good. This awful wet cold weather is not helping .... my hips are all achy the last few days too. Despite all this I feel focused. The lemonade is filling me up pretty good and besides being bored with it I am sure I can do 10 tens and see how I feel at 10. My tongue never really went white so not sure if that means I am generally clean and healthy, which must be true.
Weight, I have lost around 5 ...... according to my wonky scale but who knows, I go by how my clothes fit.
Warm weather would be nice, which is why we waited this long but I guess you cannot have it all !!!
Bunny
Mom
Beauty outside does not always mean beauty inside.
tired
Chad and Momma
He will be 31 next month, how the fuck did that happen?
time
leap frogs across the backs of many
unaware we skip.hop.laugh
our way
as though we were immune
the grey of time stamps us
little splotches here and there
as if to say, do not get
too comfortable
the un-aging neologism
of my mind, magic mirror
unsurped I rushed
recalcitrant goats through the gate
memories
Ok, I plan on being nostalgic since my diagnosed anxiety, ok maybe it has been brought on by 13 hour days, no sex, no sleep for 62 days, 12 hours, 53 minutes. Torn between wanting to deal with this natural and wanting to take sleeping pills.....so instead I will blog. It used to be chicken soup yes? How can a dead chicken and too much salt and sodium cure a cold, I ask you? So this is Kevin and I, he of my infamous story "love and the naked saxaphone player" I was 40 in this picture and he was 28. I know, pretty damn hot huh? It must have been the overalls and hair ... you should see me now.
One more time with feeling
Well I have been following a diet of soft, non spicy foods, apple cider vinegar, lots of sleep (haha) and yoga and calm, and while I have had no voice the last few days I feel this is finally coming out of my head and throat. Now the hard decision. DO I start the cleanse again and ignore what the doctor says tomorrow, which I know will be yet more antibiotics, which is what I do not want in my body? OR do I opt for the healthy choice, the right choice, try this again and do at least the 10 days.
NEXT DAY
Well went to the doc about the throat this morning and he scolded me for not taking the meds, says to at least take them a month, assures me my throat issues are indeed related to this GERD and I better start taking it seriously. While I do have a sinus infection, and he gave me a nasal spray for that, which was a little piece of heaven, he says the THROAT is the acid problem and while doing a cleanse is a great thing ingesting nothing but lemon with this problem in full swing of course is going to aggravate it. I suppose that makes a bit of sense, but hey, I am stubborn. {:C) SO....I will make my priority getting healthy again and do the cleanse when I feel like doing it in the spring. I feel one must listen to their own body and while doing a "group" thing is nice is come say, we also must follow the rhythm of our own bodies when this kind of thing is concerned. I say April some time.
Day 6
Well I had a bad night last night, acid in my mouth while sleeping and I feel awful this morning so not sure drinking more lemons which is likely causing my GERD to act up is a good idea. Perhaps I will deal with this accordingly and get rid of it and then do the cleanse. After all this acid problem is not an infection or anything .... sad thing is I am not hungry and could have done this. Oh well, timing sometimes is important, and I lasted 6 days at least.
Day 5
Well I am not hungry. But I have awful heartburn and I have not visited the washroom in that ever so special way since Tuesday so I bought a different kind of senna tea today. I had this fab loose leaf stuff that I bought in London and ran out of .... this one is good, my sister swears.
I have this heartburn, my energy level is in spurts but lower than usual. I think going into this a bit sick likely is the reason. My throat is killing and I am coughing up stuff. Is this cleanse breaking up the infection or making it worse? Feels like it is breaking up. Throat is raw. I have felt like giving up a few times, not even because I am craving any particular food or anything, I just am craving some comfort of some kind. But I am tough, I have lasted 5 days and felt ok up till today, so what is a few more. I will see how long I last. If this starts to go away I may feel inspired to go longer.
Besides this is me a few weeks ago. Thinner than before the first cleanse months ago. And I did not gain one single pound back. I stayed healthy and went vegan and did not gorge over the holidays and today at day 4 am 4 lbs lighter yet.
But I digress, this is about the health !! (with a pinch of vanity tossed in?)
Day 4
Well day 3 was a nightmare. As I have mentioned I have not felt well for months, I have had a very sore throat, whether my esophagus or sinus was always open for debate, even acid reflux being blamed. After meds that did not work and this ongoing on and off irritation continuing even after the first cleanse, which I did not go long enough for, I spent the day yesterday hacking up stuff and clearing my throat till it was raw.
Strangely it does not feel as bad today, also I am not as plugged up with this cold I had when I started, but I plan on not leaving the house, as my throat seems to get worse when I go out. Allergies?
I am not remotely hungry, although if I THINK of food of course it seems appealing. Also something I learned yesterday while out. If you smell a food and it makes you hungry stop and take a deep long breath and let it sweep over you, it is rather nice and somehow almost as satisfying as eating, given your state of mind. It makes your senses heightened.
The tea is not working for me, no idea why. Drank two glasses yesterday and NADA. Will try again today !!
